Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Here's my deal...haivng a major crisis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…

I'll be 28 in August and I still live with my parents, have no car, or job....I never adjusted well to college, I mean I went to community collee after highschool, did really well, almost a 4.0 GPA first semester while holding a decent part time job making good money....but then a few things happened in my personal life that got me off track....ended up transferring to Rutgers after a year of community college which was a big mistake..should have stayed for the 2 years first...came back to community college and finished an A.A. a couple months before my 22nd birthday...felt like I messed up big time and ruined my entire college experience...meanwhile my parents were moving to FL from NJ so I could either get a job in NJ and pay rent without furthering my education...or move down there with them to finish my undergraduate...it was a crazy time..back in 2005 right before hurricane Katrina....I went back an forth from NJ to FL....got into a bunch of trouble, and things just spiraled out of control...been working odd jobs wherever I can find them...not only the economy but where I live in FL is simply horrible for jobs...I've made some half-assed attempts to get back to the university in FL..actually took some summer classes 2 years ago when I was about to be 26....felt super old back then too...I'm just completely miserable with the way my life has turned out and it stilll feels like its spiraling out of control....I know absolutely no one down here...and it feels like I haven't known anyone for years...its just a wierd time and I dont see any light at the end of the tunnel....thoughts, opinions, advice...open to it all....I feel like I'm stilll like 22-23...look about 25....but I'm goin to be 28 in a few months....holy ****, where the hell did the tiime go....I dont want to get in a panic because that is pretty much what landed me in this rut in the first place but at the same time I cant just sit around dicking around on yahoo answers either.....HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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